Exercise: Poi Dancing and other things to babble about

Yes, I play with my balls. There I said it! It would be pretty strange yet scary to admit, but I think I'm turning into a bit of a hippy. I bought a Namaste wallet, along with fingerless gloves. Went to a Burner party in San Francisco (After party for burning man) and Fell in love with the art of POI.... I won't go into detail of what Poi is so you should google it! lol All I will tell you is, It's a form of dance. An Art. A mobile version of meditation. It's a way of expressing one's self. It relieves stress. IT HELLA BURNS CALORIES! A lot of benefits you reap when you learn about poi.

I've been learning how to Poi spin for about a week now. And I am just in love with it. It's very fun with fast music or calming music. The popular kind of Poi is fire poi. But I am not ready to play with fire yet, So LED poi will do just fine!




I've been learning how to spin Poi on youtube, as well as expertvillage.com . Type in Poi and you get a range of free tutorials on how to. Only a few words can describe how this new love intrigues me. It makes me feel free. It makes me feel sexy. It makes me feel graceful. I feel like I'm bringing my spirit out and you can see my spirit in the Poi.

Though, Right now, I'm not that good at it. I look like a robot rotating wheels. I eventually want to get good enough to be able to dance with poi and make it look even more fun. I try to dance a little lol. How do you thank someone for bringing your artistic side out? How do you thank someone for helping you discover who you are and who you want to be? If you've been on my facebook, You know who I'm talking about. I dont' have the words or the way to show how thankful I am for someone letting me be who I am. For letting me be ME. Before August 2010, I felt like I wasn't even human. Just some sort of lifeform that did nothing with her life. Simply existed. I still felt that way even after I lost the weight! I think it's because, when I lost the weight, I expected everything to work FOR me. Instead of me doing it. But I realize now, That the journey doesn't end when you lose the weight. It's only JUST beginning. I lost the weight, now the real journey begins.... The journey of finding myself and becoming who I WANT TO BE. Who knew that simply falling in love with someone could change all that.

Poi is just more than a new fun exercise to me. It's something that's making me realize that there is so much more to this world that I don't even know about, And It's helping me discover new places, new events, new and amazing people with amazing hearts and minds. I never knew how enjoyable life on this earth could be until I met the love of my life. Everyday that I wake up, and I have the chance to love, to live and to learn.... I'm immensely grateful for.

This post is VERY mushy gushy and Hippy. But I did say this is a journey of a Roux En Y'er who is living life to the fullest. Losing weight, Finding love... Can do amazing things for your mind body and soul. What a life. WHAT A LIFE!

To see how I'm doing at Poi click here

My life After everything....

So here we are....

The final steps for my Dad's business to be closed are almost complete. It's such a heart ache. I still find myself a bit angry at him for not going to the doctor. If he did, he might've been around for 20 years more or so. But no... He had to be a stubborn ass Italian and choose to die instead. (Still grieving apparently).

But as it all comes to an end, I can't help myself to be wanting everything to be as it was again (Not talking about my ex goddess forbid). I just wish my Dad was still here. I always went to him for questions I knew he had the answers to. Sometimes I swear I see signs from him everywhere... I know my mom does too.... Wednesday after work, my mom was still heartbroken about everything going on, not to mention the dumb asses who won't let her have peace... I felt so bad. I have no idea what to tell my mom to make her feel better about anything. None of us have the answers. But as I was driving down 101 North, a bus in my review mirror had the words in the marquee spell "SORRY." For a minute I thought that was my Dad saying sorry for all that's happened... I'd like to have thought it was him speaking to me. then as the bus passed me it read... "Sorry, out of service." I teared up a little in the car because I'm just so frustrated with everything. My whole family has gone through hell and nobody will let me or my mom breathe! In a way, it will be good when the business is done with, in a way, it won't be. I have to look for another job, and I'm a bit frightened I won't find the one I want because I need to renew my license by Decemeber 3rd... maybe I worry too much?

In the mean time, I found a new hobby that's keeping me quite busy. Kandi making (or beading if you want to get technical). It has become a favorite hobby of mine aside from photography. I just love seeing the different patterns come together to make something beautiful. And the funnest part is when I get to give them away to people who will like them. It's kept my mind off of things that are currently happening right now. I also noticed a majority of the people on my Facebook do Kandi as well! and they have made extraordinary patterns by far! I hope to be a part of a kandi making party sometime soon. Maybe get a few pointers.

Life at home as been utterly serene. Despite the fact that I don't necessarily admire our neighbors (Because they are always loud all the time and play loud trumpet mexican music. and sorry if that sounded racist, but that's what they play). Despite that, Life is beautiful. I love my life at home. I always found myself dreading going home to negativity, screaming and pure depression, Now I come home to smiles and happy vibes. It's amazing. Not to mention, My honey's helped me blossom even more to the person I wanted to be. I'm more social now and I'm not afraid to talk to people anymore. I still get iffy sort of around big crowds, but I'm learning to over come that.

I've also been shown some new genres of music which I'm just falling head over heels for... Combichrist is just eargasms all day long in my car. Headhunterz is just hella fun to dance to, and K12, omg K12 is sick! Speaking of music.... I went to lupin lodge for the first time with my honey and a couple friends, and there was the first time I ever had the guts to dance in front of people! Didn't care who was watching! That's how I always wanted to feel! Just be myself and not care what anyone thinks.... It's a beautiful feeling.

Aside from my job problem, I'm so happy with where my life is now... I have no regrets for the decisions I made to leave my ex, in fact, it probably was the best thing I had ever done. Because Now look where I am at? I'm no longer afraid. And I'm just blooming out of my shell! Thanks to my baby. Life is good!

Apple Cranberry Chicken Salad

So last night I thought I'd try to make my favorite salad that I get from multiple restaurants (Not to mention fast food :S)...
Red Robin calls it "Apple Harvest Salad"
Wendy's Calls it "Mediterranean Salad" (I think)
And Sonoma Chicken coop Calls it "Cranberry Apple" (not sure about that one either)

But either way, I love this salad so much because it's so juicy, sweet and has so many flavors to it that mix so well! So I made it last night...

1 head of romaine lettuce (chopped)
Half a bag of Cherry Craisins
1 6oz packet of Pine Nuts (roasted in the pan until golden brown)
One 6 oz packet of Feta Cheese
3 Fillets of skinless boneless Chicken (cooked in a pan until brown)
4 Apples Cut and diced
Balsamic Vinaigrette (However much you like to put on it)


This salad almost made me go into a stoma coma.. ALMOST but instead it made me pleasantly full! My protein shake I had for dessert on the other hand, Had me laying on the couch because I thought liquids couldn't get you full. Boy was I wrong! Maybe it was the combination of that and the salad.. who's to know? I'm trying to do better at that!

Tuesday I started back On Sparkpeople.. I love that site! It keeps me so accountable and it helps me log my food in for the day. It's like facebook kind of. A social network, but with a health aspect to it. I hope you join me on there. We can be accountability partners on there ;) My username on there is Melitriot.

Still at my Dads work -_- This place is a tad bit depressing... He's dead and gone and I'm still here doing absolutely nothing...

Money is grim. And I so badly want to start looking for a CNA position somewhere in the bay area... I want to have a stable paycheck... It's terrible here.

I seriously need to do yoga and meditation.. My mind and body is so out of focus...

I'm doing better at taking my vitamins though. That's helped me feel better by a whole lot!

But it's not enough... I need to start exercising!!!! gah!

Living Life

Let's Get one thing clear, I do not smoke! No cigarettes, Cigars, (Or weed for that matter :P) But I was very tempted to try hookah. This is not an everyday thing (It's kind of expensive. But I had so much fun going here for me and my honey's 2nd Monthiversary on Friday! The atmosphere was relaxing and the music was awesome! Hookah is unlike anything I've ever tried! It's supposedly Tobacco infused with many flavors. We tried one called "Exotic Pink"It smelled wonderful and tasted good too. Never thought I'd say that lol. Hookah Really relaxes you. But I wouldn't do it all the time. Do it too much and you start to get a headache :s




I never thought my life could be like this. So blissful and content. When your obese and "settle for less" you think that's all your life is going to be, miserable and stressed. That's how my life was for the last few years of my life. Until I met Brett. Never knew someone like him existed. He's nothing but smiles. He's caring. And he has common sense about everything! My other relationship with my Ex-husband was nothing but screaming, yelling and negative responses to everything I wanted to do positive in my life. Not to mention he's so immature. Brett makes me happy. I want him to be with me all the time. I miss him terribly when I'm at work, or when he's at work. I wish I could've met him sooner.

He actually sent me roses to my work for our 1st monthiversary of being together. It was wonderful. I call him my Brett N' Butter. He's shown me how a relationship is suppose to be. I dont' doubt we will have disagreements here and there. But I can't picture my life without him now. I'm so blissful now. He's taken me out to dinner and shown me so much within the past couple of months. And My whole family loves him. Go figure.


We are still waiting for internet to get setup at our house. I can't wait. I'm so behind on making a youtube video! I miss being apart of the community. I hope to start yoga soon with Brett. I hope to get started as a CNA again too. So much going on! I think I'm high on caffeine. I'll post more soon. More recipes to come! xoxoxo

Cauldron Cooking: Dorito Casserole

Yes I absolutely Love Dorito Casserole. You're probably asking, "Is that really healthy?" Well for starters, this is a Weight Watchers recipe I gathered from a friend. It's 6 points of yummy goodness. And it seemed to be a hit last night at the house. Brett and I had a guest over last night and it was a pleasant visit. It'll be the last night I cook until next week. We are going out on Friday for our 2 month anniversary :) Not to mention we are heading out to LA for the weekend for Halloween Horror Nights. Should I wear Depends? I think I might poop myself....

Dorito Casserole

Tis' the Season! Pumpkin Protein Shake

So last night I decided to make me and my honey a pumpkin spice protein shake. It was so delicious! I just recently moved in with my baby, and I said in advance that I would show him all the yummy Weight Loss Surgery Recipes I learned from books and helpful websites. We are in fact, in the month of October, where you see pumpkins galore everywhere!

None of these recipes I make are of my own. I get them from other sources, So if you're interested in trying these recipes, I'm more than happy to cite the info here :)



Pumpkin Protein Shake Recipe

I am starting a blog here on everything WLS related as well as living just a normal life, maybe even an exciting one. This blog will include Recipes I find online and testing them out (cauldron cooking), Exercise; whether that be running, yoga, or walking, and Relationships ie family or the significant other, and some interesting posts about having adventures (dancing, sight seeing, or social gatherings of any kind!) Future posts are to follow!